Am I for it? - written in April 2013, reviewed today!

I have been quite busy since posted to International Student Centre. A new place, new environment and new set of teamwork. Everyday is like a new day to me...new shocking issues, new challenges and sometime new headache! Anyway, I am settling down and learned to accept the fact that Allah sent me here for good reasons...Although it's not an easy rowing for me, but I'll try my very best to perform with Allah will. InsyaAllah...InsyaAllah...InsyaAllah. There was a promotion exercise recently, it was a quick decision by the VC to advertise the more than 2 years vacant N52 post. He has been delaying the promotion exercise for reason like there's no suitable candidate to hold the position. It's okay...there's a truth in it. I also wish to see a credible, brilliant,global and multitask leader to be in the senior position as our outfit is currently perceived as lack of talent and leadership personnel! Yes, in my personal view, there's a leadership crisis in the Registrar outfit. Don't agree with me? It's okay, I don't expect to have follower to agree with my opinion. But the real fact is, sometimes the management found difficulties in putting the right people at the right place, sometimes the negative perception jeopardize the courage one have to move forward. Negative perception, with low motivation, complacent attitude are some of the factors that affects the promotion exercise. Left this argument behind, as I am going to conduct a research on Crisis Leadership soon (when? really not sure.....but will do that!) Today: The promotion exercise to Grade N52 was re-advertised again - change of promotion exercise format i.e. INTERVIEW ONLY... Some of my colleagues sat for exams after the first advertisement... Anyway, I have not decide whether to apply or not...Let Allah tick my heart to make the right decision! I pray for the right person to get the post. Amin

ISC - my workplace

It has been three and half months I have been transferred to this place. A lot more challenges I faced compare to my previous departments. I learned the meaning of hardship, friendship, respect people for whom they are, be patient, be in other people's shoes, caring and forgiving. The students look at me like their mummy...it is okay, I enjoy it. In term of workplace and system improvement, a lot of things to be done....the works keep boggling in my mind even when I am sleeping...my dream, my day and my life are occupied with the responsibilities I have to carry out in this place. Thanks to my dearest husband and children for their understanding and support. Not easy to make people understand what I am going through...people still keep asking me whether I am okay to hold this responsibility, some people thought I was promoted to take up this position...some are confident that I can change this place...of course some are still skeptical whether I am fit to be the Director of International Student Centre. Whatever you say, I reserve my comment to respond to that. Allah put me here with reasons, if He wants me to stay, I'll be here long otherwise I will be in some other place...the life fate has already been written by Him for me. After few months, I found that things are getting better, and I am optimistic that this place can be transformed to a better place in the future, if only I am here for a longer period...as many people have said...Madam you have done some change to this place and we hope you will be here for a longer period to make sure the ball doesn't stop rolling... the problem of this place is it keeps changing leadership. Leadership is important to drive the team to achieve its aspiration... May Allah grants me strength, positiveness and willingness to lead the team. Amin. By the way I have served UM for 20 years...I did not notice until I received the notification letter from BSM...another 16 more years to sail, may the sailing gets smoother each day...Thanks Allah

Joburg - suatu catatan perjalanan 6 - 10 Mei 2013

6 Mei 2013 aku diberi kesempatan untuk menjejakkan kaki di bumi Allah bernama Johannesburg. Penerbangan yang dilewatkan sehari lantaran sebagai seorang warga Malaysia aku perlu menjalankan tanggungjawabku untuk mengundi bagi memilih kepimpinan yang bakal menerajui Malaysia mencapai kejayaan yang lebih gemilang pada hari muka. Aku menetap di Hyatt Regency tempat yang sama di mana aku akan membentangkan secebis pengalaman dalam QS Maple 2013- 8/5/2013. Alhamdulillah semuanya berjalan lancar. Persembahanku menarik beberapa soalan daripada peserta dan aku menjawab dengan gembira. Esoknya sebelum check out, aku bersama 7 orang peserta yang lain mengambil peluang melawati kawasan persekitaran Soweto. Tiada pemandangan yang menarik yang boleh aku kongsikan. Lukisan hidup manusia di celah-celah kehidupan yang begitu menekan, meninggalkan jurang yang mewarnai kehidupan masyarakat di Joburg. Yang kaya, yang sederhana tidak kurang yang sangat daif dan meminta-minta. Yang berkumpul di hadapan kilang-kilang menanti rezeki kalau-kalau ada yang menggamit menghulurkan pekerjaan, biarpun sebagai pencuci atau apa sahaja, asalkan mulut dapat menjamah rezeki untuk hari ini...Biar kesempitan hidup begitu ketara, namun pendidikan untuk anak2 tidak sesekali diabai ibu bapa....cantik mengenakan pinafor dengan harapan yang besar untuk mengubah hidup keluarga...semoga Allah memudahkan urusan mereka, memberikan mereka rezeki dan rahmatNya yang berpanjangan kepada hamba-hambaNya walau di mana jua kami berada. Perjalanan juga mencoretkan kenangan apabila berkesempatan melawat rumah Nelson Mandela, pejuang bangsa yang dihormati seluruh dunia, melewati kediaman Winnie Mandela (pernah suatu ketika menjadi kekuatan untuk Nelson Mandelamemperjuangkan nasib bangsanya), mengunjungi muzium apartheid dengan cerita suka duka perjuangan mereka...aku insafi kehidupanku sekeluarga, hidup aman dan damai,saling hormati masyarakat berbilang kaum dam agama....adakah ia akan berterusan atau adakah suatu masa nanti keamanan dan kedamaian anugerah Allah ini akan bertukar menjadi mimpi ngeri...aku pasrah padaMu Ya Rabbi